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I have an 18 year old son with autism. I am a chemist for big pharma for 29 years. I didn't know anything about vaccines and nobody warned me about vaccines. It never occurred to me to research vaccines. I blindly followed whatever the pediatrician said and I deeply regret it to this day. My son was a full-term, 9 pound baby and developing perfectly fine. I witnessed him regress into autism. I went deep down the rabbit hole of vaccine research and I never stopped researching it. We have been duped for decades! It's a hard red pill to swallow! My son saved his younger brother from the vaccines and my younger son is healthy, intelligent and unvaccinated. He saved his younger brother from the poison shots. He also saved our whole family from the experimental covid shots. I even had to switch jobs last year after 27 years of service because my company mandated the vaccines. The truth will eventually come out. The silver lining with the covid shots is that more people are waking up faster and coming over to our side of health freedom and scientific truth. God bless all the people who are vaccine injuried. May their vaccine injuries get the acknowledgement and the compensation they deserve. 🙏

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I have two autistic children. I have tried so hard not to blame vaccines. So hard. I have walked into doctor office after doctor office and reassured them I wasn’t questioning drugs or vaccines. No, they definitely had not harmed my kids. I don’t want anyone thinking I’m crazy.

Except they had harmed them. And I knew it. But they train you to ignore your instincts. Or not to admit them. I try not to hold myself accountable for things I know now that I wish I had known 15 years ago. But I’ve sacrificed my kids’ futures on the altar of a mythical public health, and something has got to change.

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Jun 15, 2022Liked by Igor Chudov

I am 100% with you. We had our children vaxxed on the normal schedule (except declined Hep B at hospital) - we had considered spacing out vaccines but were reassured by friends who were doctors that it made more sense to keep to the schedule. A few years back when our kids were around 3-5YO, two of them caught pertussis (whooping cough) despite being fully vaxxed. Had to bring them to the doctor 3 times before the doctors figured it out. Despite this earlier direct experience with vaccine failure, it took Covid for me to appreciate the full extent of pharma fraud. Grateful we have been able to avoid the covid vax for our kids, but I do wonder what effect those earlier shots might have had. On the topic of your apology - I also feel that I owe an apology to the pre-covid "anti-vaxxers". I used to view this group as free riders who wanted the benefit of vaccine-induced herd immunity without any of the risk. Now I have a much greater understanding of their perspective, and also appreciate that many found themselves in this camp after first-hand experience with vaccine injury. I am truly sorry that I didn't consider their position more thoughtfully earlier.

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I highly recommend Steve Kirsch's recent interview with Andrew Wakefield on the entire childhood vax lineup https://stevekirsch.substack.com/p/im-interviewing-andrew-wakefield?

As well as this follow up https://stevekirsch.substack.com/p/icymi-fda-data-and-shots-gab-poll?s=r

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Jun 15, 2022Liked by Igor Chudov

The only good thing about covid is that many people will wake up to what people like Del Bigtree have been SCREAMING for years… that the childhood vaccine schedule is dangerous and destroying our kids health. I highly recommend the book “How to End the Austin’s Epidemic “ by JB Hadley. It is an excellent compilation of the actual science on vaccines and the adjuvants used in them.

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Dr Andrew WAkefield was completely destroyed by the vax industry when he exposed the MMR and autism link. The game is UP! so pissed off I am

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Jun 15, 2022Liked by Igor Chudov

We are all in the same boat here Igor, this has been a massive awakening for so many. I did have a gut feeling that the vaccines were neither safe nor effective when my son was a toddler. He had a bad reaction to the MMR and came up with autoimmune reactions straight away. I told my husband I didn't want to vaccinate him anymore but I couldn't find any information backing up my intuition.... so we went ahead and kept vaccinating him, and my next son. I wish I had stuck to my guns but whats done is done.

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Jun 15, 2022Liked by Igor Chudov

"Trust the science, when we allow you to read it, 75 years from now."

--Pfizer slogan, probably

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Jun 15, 2022Liked by Igor Chudov

Igor, this makes me cry. I have done the same to my son (now 18) and told him recently I was so sorry…and didn’t understand at the time. I’m trying to figure out a way to exempt him for any “top up’s” before college in August. (It’s a miracle his small men’s college never mandated the C19 shots)

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Jun 15, 2022Liked by Igor Chudov

We're all learning all the time, Igor, and we have been lied to all our lives by people who should be worthy of trust. Your children won't hold what you didn't know against you. God bless you for all you're doing now to spread truth!

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Jun 15, 2022Liked by Igor Chudov

For my first daughter, the vax for the rotavirus had been suspended due to intussusception which is when one part of the intestine slides into another part like a collapsible telescope. She subsequently got the rotavirus and was really sick for 4 days. Did everything I could to make sure she didn't get dehydrated. For the second daughter, I was glad to have her jabbed with the Rotatec vax thinking this would protect her. Nope! She developed green jelly diarrhea within a few days and went to the hospital for two days of diagnostics. Every night for 4 months she cried for about 2 hours before going to sleep and also had intermittent diarrhea the entire time. The pediatrician agreed that the vax was likely responsible, but she did not submit a VAERS report so I did instead.

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Jun 15, 2022Liked by Igor Chudov

Yeah, I'm keeping my kids and myself away from the corrupt medical industrial complex as much as possible going forward. Aside from treating traumatic injury or some sort of acute severe illness like appendicitis, we're staying far, far away.

The system does exactly what it is designed to do - rake in profits. It does not at all do what it is purported to do - make people healthier.

But the propaganda is so powerful. The silver lining on the tremendous harms caused by Covid hysteria is that it fully exposed this corruption for all to see who cared to look. "I once was lost, but now I'm found."

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This piece broke my heart. I am on a guilt trip for vaccinating my children, too. Both my sons suffered serious (life threatening) health setback shortly after meningoccocal B vaccine by Pfizer, which they got on the same day. Coincidence? Now, after health wrecking treatment, they must do their blood tests every three months for the rest of their lives, hoping for the best. This is not what teenagers/young adults should be worrying about. Additionally one of them got tinnitus (he was 15 then) right after that shot, which we have not been able to cure.

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I'm sure your children would forgive you. We were all taught to trust doctors and healthcare authorities. Even the doctors believed it and they are the ones who should have known how to assess their safety..I'd like to recommend a book to you. Dissolving Illusions. A well documented historical study of vaccines of the 19th and 20th centuries. With graphs showing that most of the diseases for which vaccines were developed were already in decline at the time the vaccines were introduced. Better hygiene and food were the big changes that saw childhood illness and death decline precipitously. But the pharmaceutical companies were quite happy to take the credit for it and have been milking it for years .Sorry I can't remember the author

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The entire vaccine industrial complex will collapse because of Malthusian overrach. The psychopaths are Icarus and have flown too close to the sun. And yes, they are ALL GOING TO ETERNALLY BURN FOR IT.

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Jun 15, 2022Liked by Igor Chudov

My two children are unvaccinated. It wasn't easy though, during my first pregnancy I obsessively researched to a point that was probably not mentally healthy. I would guess 150 hours of reading, and I mean that. I was not impressed with the data, but also, I learned so many of these companies had knowingly killed people -- not with vaccines necessarily, but they had. So I decided I would not trust these companies, and did no vaccines, period. But even in my liberal town where in the past so many didn't vaccinate, it was a secret and a hidden scarlet letter. It's psychologically difficult. Like-minded friends came under tremendous and sometimes abusive pressure when they refused or deferred vaccination. I don't blame anyone who trusted or gave in. With my second child I had antibiotics during labor because I had a positive strep B test, but that was terribly detrimental to his health for years (if not forever). Not a vaccine, but definitely damaging. I made that decision out of fear, a fear of separation were he to be held for observation, and given the strange situation with the birthing center which was connected to the hospital yet not part of it, such that I could be discharged, yet he could be held there without me. I didn't want to risk separation, so I gave in, and his digestion was terribly affected, as was his immune system, which was prone to the autoimmune, e.g. severe eczema. Introducing probiotics felt like a miracle, and showed me what the problem had been -- his lack of healthy gut flora. In 2014, at age 10, he caught EV-68, a virus which was essentially polio that was epidemic in the US, which the CDC utterly ignored except to tell everyone NOT to test for it. (That year was The End, between me and CDC.) My daughter was fine, a sniffle; my son I drove to the ER at 2am asking him over and over "Can you still breathe? Can you still breathe?" He had never had asthma, yet needed hours of breathing treatments plus Albuterol for every cold for 2 years after that. I can't help but wonder about his lifelong health risks given he never established native gut flora at birth, and I feel responsible, regretful, and angry. First do no harm needs to be the mantra not of doctors (they clearly don't listen) but of parents. Refuse. This is your child. Refuse.

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